Crossroads

“You are now at a crossroads. This is your opportunity to make the most important decision you will ever make. Forget your past. Who are you now? Who have you decided you really are now? Don't think about who you have been. Who are you now? Who have you decided to become? Make this decision consciously. Make it carefully. Make it powerfully.”  ~ Anthony Robbins ~

My emotions have been riding on waves lately.  Behold the forces of nature - the waves and me. Equally tranquil (at times), equally destructive.

I have been at the tip of the highest peak  and over the sharpest cliff. The journeys have been both mentally and physically exhausting. Being the sort that self-destruct when I feel helpless, the alarm is now deafening. Frustrations are slowly driving me towards the edge, and there are no promises as to how long I can cling onto sanity.

It is time. Time for decisions. Decisions to lift me out of the rat hole, decisions for me to regain control of my life. What should I do? Where should I go? I need only to discover my purpose here, my purpose in life. The answer shall dictate the correct path.

The struggle against emotional turmoil will no doubt be hard, all I can do is to try and stay afloat.

January 2011 – when all hell broke free in me.

A New Beginning: An attempt to revive my blog

It has been more than a year since I lost my best friend, my blog stopped dead in its tracks the time I received the devastating news. The date was 17-June-2010, it was a Thursday.

Today is 12-Aug-2011, and coincidentally a Friday. Let this particular Friday mark a new beginning in my attempt to keep a diary, or at least a virtual one.

Life has been a rollercoaster for the past 1 year, with a gloomy shroud being casted upon my daily life. There were moments of happiness, however I have also taken uncountable journeys to the deepest valley of sorrow. Talking the walk is always easier than walking the talk, telling oneself to move on is one thing but another to really do it. Being an extremely sentimental person, all the memories I had with you will forever linger, and I am determined to hang on to them dearly, just like everything else that you have left behind.

One important lesson (and most probably one with the most significance this life) I have learned is that life is extremely unpredictable and we have control over it only to a certain extend. Life is so fragile that it will fade away should we as much as whisper. Voices in my head and footsteps in the sand may be all that will remain as I walk down the path of time, but they are reminiscence of a good 10 years of friendship.

At times I talk to myself, just the way I used to talk to you. Though not physical, I hope that you can still hear me and know that a friend misses you.

Take care, my old friend. Lead me into the light when the time comes, and we shall be friends once more - for eternity.